Four Walls

I hide inside these four strong walls
But they can’t give me protection
For in my head are tortured thoughts
That won’t let me forget them
And all my life is just
A factory of words
So exaggerated, reality
and fiction lines are blurred
My eyes are now wide open
I’ve been a little hurt
Play with fire darling
And soon you will be burnt
I keep on probing these sick feelings
Am I prettier than her?
Oh it really doesn’t matter
Because I never want him back
I felt I lost the battle
Keep forgetting what he lacks
I’ve been too long
On this other side
I’ve seen that other people
Can’t abide
They boy I chose
And still I lie
My hearts not broken
Its just my pride

mundane

I’m looking for a boy
Who needs a little help
Always been addicted
To a victim
More screwed up than me
For it helps me to forget
All we regret
I love the heart break
Of romance
I love their bittersweet dependence
When I’m just there for them
Oh all these egocentric men
With mouths to feed
With hearts to bleed
And leave littered with the promises
Never to be filled
I love their lonely deep brown eyes
When all in mine is tears to cry
I love the drama
All that’s left is now
Mundane.